So it is Official They are Going to DisneyWorld

Things as many of you know have been really tight. The girls have the band trip in just over a week. This is a major trip that happens every two years. Every four years they go to Disneyworld, to make it an even bigger deal this year the choir is combining their trip and going as well. So if they miss this one they wont get another chance.. well the older one wont and the younger one wont for two more years..

Until today, we were not sure the money was going to be there. Oh the girls fundraised and worked very hard.. but they could not do the entire thing.. amazingly enough when some friends found out, the trip was paid for... and the band director has been so wonderful letting us basically push it until the last moment.

So thank you to those who make a difference in another's life. For stepping up and buying lunch or shoes or a trip to Disney.. you don't know what changes you have wrought

What a week

It has been a week that never ends.. First the girls were sick, not sorta sick I mean totally and completely sick. Of course they were healthy enough to bicker.. you know I never bickered with my family. Honestly we DID NOT FIGHT!! we weren't allowed to. We of course never dreamed of disrespecting our parents. But that is another subject.

Anyway word girl got sick first then blond girl... so of course word girl said blond girl stayed home because she did. It didn't matter that her fever was 102..nope she was poser.

Then there was the added factor that pita boy changes when they are around. He is ok when it is just he and I but when they walk through the door he turns into a total idiot when they come home. So the bickering and interacting went on for 4 days straight.. Leaving me feeling like I was a total failure as a parent.. well we never argued so why do they?

Word girl has a wonderful explanation... well mom we were raised differently. Ok doesn't do much for my sense of self esteem as I am the one who raised them.. oh well, they are both back in school now but spring break is looming.. thank goodness they will be gone for much of it..

I gave up today

Being a single parent is difficult, being one that constantly faces the failures of ones own choices sometimes just tears at me. It is amazing that I sit here thinking I just gave up today. I am detached, no anger, no depression, no gut wrenching pain. It just seems no matter how hard I try, I fail.

I haven't blogged lately, I haven't even thought about it. It is not that I don't have a lot to say it is I don't know if I want to say it. Or if others want to hear it. So today I just gave up...

Oh I will come back, I always do but right this minute I want to curl up pull the covers over my head and hope that tomorrow is a better day

Ain't Life Grand Award

Now, I admit I have been a little less blog hopping over the past week or two due to computer issues. When I do I try to read what I can as quickly as I can.. Imagine my surprise when in my in box on entrecard, I found an email from Lola at Lola's Diner . This was a great award as it says exactly how I feel about life.. ain't life grand!! For any who haven't popped over to the Diner I suggest you do, she has a great blog full of family, friends and just a great place to be.


But now!! On to the award.. five reasons that make my life grand and five bloggers who are just as grand..

1. Life is grand because I have four amazing and wonderful kids who not only bring me great pride but also give me lots of things to blog about.

2. Life is grand because even when I feel like I have no where to turn there is always someone who is there to offer me a smile, a word, a shoulder to lean on.

3. Life is grand because I am at the very beginning of a new relationship.. full of promise and what if's

4. Life is grand because Anne Bishop and Stephanie Laurens both have new books out.

5. Life is grand because through the internet I have been able to keep in contact with old friends and family AND make lots of new ones..

and the winners are....

1. California Today . A wonderful view of what is so very special about California

2. A PostCard A Day . A wonderful way to share the world with those of us who want to go everywhere..

3. Mandy Harvey Beads . I love her wonderful jewlery

4. On the Verge . A wonderful mom and a fantastic fellow blogger.. always a pleasure to just go see what she is up to.

5. here and now 4angel . I love this blog she has some wonderful heartfelt poetry listed.

I had fun finding the perfect blogs for this award, I wanted to really share ones that just make my life grand..

Caving Anyone?

Not that I am supposed to talk about her, yeah right.. but word girl went caving the other day. She had a blast! Initially she was a bit intimidated by the fact that she would be going into the ground but she went.. and came home muddy and chattering away..

She is in a gym class at school called adventure ed and they go camping, kayaking, skiing, caving... remember when gym met dodge ball???

my how times have changed..

Same Song Different Verse... 100 POSTS!!

Hard as it is to believe this is my 100th post on this blog.. It seems just the other day I decided to split from my Shaunispeaks blog. Now here I am 100 proud.

Thank you all for you interest and fun filled comments. It is somehow soothing to know that I am not alone in the world of parenting. That there are others out there!!

I know 100 seems like a lot to say and nothing at all. The good news is, I am sure I will have much more to add.

I mean I have Hair Boy, Pita Boy, Word Girl and Blond Girl for inspiration..

Thanks again all

Would They Just Leave Already?

So it is day 4 of my weekend of torture. At no point since this fiasco of a school break has occured that I have time alone. Oh one or two will be gone and once even three but there is always that straggler.

I suppose it would be better if they had a place to go, I mean another room or something but alas that still hasn't occurred. So we sit here trying not to kill each other. Finding pleasure in books, TV and Movies.. well they find that sense of joy in bickering and fighting.

If my middle two ever actually leave my home I am going to insist they either live together say in Australia or live in separate parts of the world. Either way they will be out of my hair.

The good news is, so far you will not be reading about me in the news.